The Surrealist Notion

just came back from a jog.

my plans for the day:

1.) watch heroes s01e04
2.) watch heroes s01e05
3.) watch disney channel until tomorrow morning
4.) continue watching what has finished downloading.

nothing, absolutely nothing, is going to come between me and my tv for the next 12 hours at least since i got disturbed in my sleep last night, or rather, early morning.

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i guess it's only customary to have a recap about what 2006 is like before the end of today officially marks the end of this year.

i was a sucker for new year's eve. not only because it signifies a new beginning of what is to come, but also an ending to what has become. but lotsa things happened this year that shifted this perception of mine.

i realised that time is a constantly flowing piece, like a piece of music score that keeps on playing. it doesn't really have an end, neither did it have a beginning. it just flows. no matter how we try to segregate time by the seasons, by months, by years even by eons, it's only a matter of time before one realises that these are only benchmarks but a never true zeitgeist.

so anyway, let's recap what has happened throughout this year.

a timeline to jog my memory first...

i think all were peaceful from january till march (except that it has been rather stressful [APPLE PROJECT!!!]) until zhiwei (I'M NOT BLAMING HER!) told me some stuff at bernard's birthday party. these stuff occupied my time all the way from then till around june? woahh. it's been a freakkingggg long time. significant benchmarks were 14th april and 28th april. that was when year2 sem1 had started.

i think 31st august was also rather significant, many thing happened on that day that it's now nothing but a fuzzy blur. on hindsight, i realised that i've overreacted and many many things were needless misunderstandings and a jumbo of all things bad. but anyway, the situation now is so bad that nothing could and should be done to salvage the situation anymore.

school gradually became the centre of my life with people like yc, jazreen, shuying, gladys, ana and catherine becoming the core of my social life. also has been meeting up considerably often of late with shiyuen (my longest (but also in a way, shortest) friend) which is really good and all. i'm surprised we haven't gotten sick of each other yet. LOL.

to all abovestated names, thank you all for cushioning the turmoils of 2006 with your big hearts and actions. it's all appreciated. if i happened to miss you out, please do not hesitate to proclaim your big name on my tagboard or comments.

to mark off, 2006 has been a very very very important year in the short history of my 18 yrs. many things have happened to change me as a people person and my views as an individual. i guess i'm not really a people person now; preferring the company of all things familiar.

thank you all for making 2006 good and bad. (:

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grey's anatomy is so good that i dont care i have work tomorrow at 10. im finishing up season 1 already! hurray!

my grandma's fine, so that calls for a celebration! (:

p.s. my homework's still pretty much undone. ):

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i just got pictures! and i realised that i havent been fooling around with photoshop for quite a while so here goes nothing... (just some photo composition.. nothing too fanciful.)

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My grandmother got hospitalised on boxing day.

She had to stay in for a week or so for observations but the current situation is that there is a low red blood cell count and something about her ... colon.

the term "colon" rang some bells in my head but i can't seemed to remember where i had read it from. it's part of my o levels syllabus; it's one of the part of the digestive tract (apparently, i still retained this bit of knowledge. i've not returned everything or what is left of it to my biology teacher, as much as i would like to.)

so anyway, after googling it, the colon is a part of of the large intestine,between the cetum and the rectum. it's responsible for the extraction of water from faeces. so the malfunction of this organ would cause what? diarrhoea?

not that i think so. whatever. i just hope she gets over this alive and well. i dunno what i will do without my grandma.

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merrymerrychristmas! (:

had work yesterday (yes, i know. i lead a sad sad life.) all the way from 2 till 10 but the crowd has considerably dispersed by around 9.

so i basically spent the whole of christmas eve working.

met kahheng after work and headed down to meet alvin, xiangxin, horngbor, huikheng and shuhsien at marina.

because of some people, we had to go to alvin's house to countdown. the mood of the festive season was totally ruined.

the countown basically sucked; the lamest i ever had in my entire life. not long after, the same people who caused us to go alvin's house left. to cut things to the chase, only me, kahheng and alvin were left.

initially, we wanted to head down to eski bar at circular street but after walking around for more than 45 minutes, we decided to give up the idea and headed down to clinic.

clinic was so ex lah! and by the time we reached clinic, it was around 1am already. the cover charge was $30 and house pours were at $13 per! so it was totally not worth it. the whole club was based on the theme of a clinic so there were operating theatres and all. alvin said that there was a room with wheelchairs but i couldnt find it. ):


didn't drink too much coz we were, like, damn broke. haha. thankfully, my pay came in two days before! it was a bit more than expected so (: (: (:

i totally forgot that clubs accept debit lahh!! haha. thankfully, alvin the spendthrift reminded me.

it was fun though, but the music was abit ... sucky. there were quite a few rooms but mainly were for drinking.

the waitresses there are hot, all of them were wearing nurse's uniform. they were selling cocktail shots at 3 for $50.

i was too shy to ask them to take a photo lah! haha!

the pics below were taken when i was abit gone already. so nevermind the looney poses.


as you can see, alvin's face is already red! haha!

so's kahheng! HAHA. and this pics were not even taken after we are done with clubbing. LOL.

headed down to maxwell to have supper at around 4. yes, we walked all the way there, mainly because of my having an obsession to eat 和记粥！when we reached alvin's house, i think i fell sleep before my head reached the pillow. :/

and there you have it, my xmas eve celebration! i now have this crick in my neck for being in an awkard but comfortable position whilst blogging!


yes, emo me. haha. i have all the rights in the world to be emo because i have advertising project to chiong tomorrow and feature writing to do on the following day!

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im not even going to use pseudonyms and im just gonna come straight to the point.




p.s.s.s. ................................................. and im still wondering after oh so long, how is it that you are able to do the things you do?

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DXO-ed last friday.

bumped into woeilin and her clique there.

it was so fun that we are going again, this friday. HAHA.

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IT'S FINALLY OVER ... (at least for now.)

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it seemed like after so long, nothing much has changed.

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listening to: Nelly Furtado - Try

dinner-ed yesterday at bugis' pastamania with ana, rudy, shuying, jaz and glad.

before meeting jaz and glad who had their advert shoot before this, the rest of us found the diamond christmas tree!




that entire tree had so many carats of diamonds. it was by soo kee jewellery, i think.

dinner!




headed down to mediacorp to catch the filming of the quarter finalists of superstar!



one of the participants was from ngee ann. it so happens that his name was weijian. lol. he wasn't feeling well but i still felt that he tried his best! so jiayou to him and all the other contestants.

finally,


a happy early birthday ana! (:

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once again, the ending of a year has creeped up behind us and we wonder where exactly did all the time go?

we look around our environment, we are still staying in the exact same place after oh so many years, still contacting the same old people (perhaps not) and basically, pretty much still in the same environment as the year before and make that, the year before that too.

so what exactly has changed?

perhaps, it could be something as trivial as the changing of a hairlock or something as monumental as an extreme makeover/personality shift.

but nonetheless, we did change. we feel different, we perceive thing differently, we even look different. sometimes, we just can't put a finger to what exactly is different. but we know that it is different.

someone wise once said "change is the only constant in life."

yes yes, an oxymoron over there. but ain't it true?

nothing lasts forever, just like there is no such thing as absolutes. you know that the Sun rose this morning. what makes you so sure it's gonna freakingly rise again tomorrow? and if so, how about that other tomorrow?

but i digress. as i was saying, change is inevitable. yes, we all agree on that that and in a way, it's a rule of thumb on its own.

we expect change. we might not like it, perhaps to the extent of fighting it, but we still accept it at the end of the day. which really, goes back to the same point of why bother fighting it in the first place if you know that you are going to embrace it? saves us all the time and energy eh?

i read somewhere that you try and try to fight the rules but you achieve only a little. work with the rules themselves and the benefits you reap might even surprise you.

think about it. we try and change things. in the process, we might find a bit more of ourselves and lose a lot. the loss, is it for the better or for the worse? the overall change, isit for the better or for the worse? the important thing is not to change with the transition itself.

some become wiser, some become a miser. that's a harsh reality of life. you either be it or you don't. you don't exactly spin around in your comfort zone thinking that 'hey. this is exactly how i am going to live my life for the next, say, 50 years'.

ahhh... wells.

sunday mornings are kinda bad for me. all the blues for monday and all. LOL.

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how can anything have an end without having a beginning?

how can closure be obtained when ... nothing was disclosed?

how ... can images start to fade?

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i left my house and reached the bus stop by 1119.

the bus was supposed to reach by 1123.

i waited till 1149 and there was no bus in sight.

cabbed to school.

sigh, the uncertainties of life...

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yesterday was a nightmare.

i had IS and i totally forgot that i had a feature writing meeting .

turns out that there was so much left to do that i stayed till 1130 in school. was so damn shagged that i fell asleep once i finished subbing the stories.

just a short post today.

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i don't claim to be anyone perfect.

i have my flaws, my pet peeves.

like, i hate people who ask me "then how?" and "where are you?" (when i am not supposed to meet them

my temper's really bad; it's just that no one really got the brunt of it and yes, you've to kinda stepped all over my tail and get it crushed over by a bulldozer before i TOTALLY snap. but when it happens, i dunno if you want to be there or not.

but i do get irritated easily. be it a small or big issue, i will still get irritated and i think it shows. but my irritation doesn't stay long. i might brood over it yes, but i will eventually get over it and move on.

what i can say about myself is that i treat everyone sincerely and honestly. i try my best and my utmost best to get things done for the people around me (unless of course, i dislike you or i am really busy).

some say im nice. some say that im their best friend.

but these things mean nothing to me. because clearly, without action, these words are simply just ... words. please, this doesn't apply to everybody so don't ask me if YOU did show it.

maybe that's why i've been working alot lately. working tends to turn your brains to mush because you are simply repeating the routine everyday and practically every single minute. this, is especially true if all you do is stand outside the men's fitting room, ask "yes sir, how is it?" "let me remove the hanger for you" and keep unbuttoning shirts. (i swear next time if i have sex, i surely will undress damn fast because i have been unbuttoning clothes like for 11 hours straight everyday for the past 2 days and that makes 22 hours.)

but i digress.

as i was saying, if it's just lip service, you can just save it. im so sick and tired of trying for people who, at the end of the day, couldn't give two hoots about me. there are those who genuinely care, but again. there are those who just ask because ... they simply do for the sake of asking and then when i relate, they space out and be totally disinterested.

im not perfect. but im the closest thing anyone can get to perfection. HAHAHA. (:

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Boy was helpless and he knew it. There was nothing much he could do except to wait out the thunderstorm.

But the final straw was when a lightning bolt struck the tree west of him. The tree immediately caught fire but luckily, the heavy downpour put it out before serious damages were incurred.

Boy knew hiding under the tree was by no means a feasible solution. The sailing experience he had never taught him real life experience on land. He was as vulnerable as a newborn babe. He decided to make a run for it. Never mind that he didn't have a destination in mind. He just ran.

And that he did. He ran as fast as he could. He ran as long as his legs could carry him. Although he stayed on the island for a sizable number of years, he did not explore it. Fear of the unknown kept him from exploring. He had no real wish or need to venture out anyway since he survived on a diet of fish and lived near the shore. Till this day, he didn't know how big the island was.

He ran and ran and ran. His legs began to shake involuntary but he forced himself to continue. All he could hear was heaven shedding its tears upon the surroundings and my, what big tears they were! He ran and ran and ran. Till the point where breathing hurts. His lungs cried out for oxygen but stop, he didn't. He pushed himself forward. He could not see, for the rain blinded him. His vision was so severely impaired that for all he knew, he could have been running around in circles.

BAM! and before he knew it, he collided with something hard. It could have been a tree trunk, a branch, or even a wall. He tried to fight to stay conscious but it was futile. The darkness engulfed him and before he knew it, he was out cold.

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advertising is stressful.

no, and im not referring to the mad deadlines, the insane amount of workload or the pressing deadlines.

im talking about the handing up of an assignment. i never knew the importance of a cover page until today when i didnt have one.

the day had been a rushed enough one and it was not even 9am. the comfort of being able to slack only comes in when class starts and only then, does time seemed to slow down and come to a standstill.

woke up at 8am yesterday. finished work at 9 pm last night. caught up on reading and turned in late. wholemeal bread and chicken ham is all i eat nowadays but gosh, im still gaining weight.

i felt melancholic yesterday. was abit sick so i went down to the polyclinic. it was closed. the polyclinic was between my alma mater and the queenstown library. the sight of my secondary school brought back a trillion memories and i realised a very sad truth of life.

much as i've achieved in my secondary life, everything comes to a nought when i left. i left without a legacy. the stuff i did is continued on by my juniors. who will remember that i was the one who standardised the grading of classroom cleanliness in queensway? who will remember that i brought the team into National WITS?

nobody will. memories fade and images ceased. immortality is not achieved. people only remember the achievements only if it is prominent enough. like the invention of the lightbulb or something.

but one thing i know: i dont want to say "I only wish..." on my deathbed. (:

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